"Three months and I'm still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in
three months, i'm living here without you
Three months yeah, three months"

"I can be mad at you, unreasonably angry. I can wonder how you can love someone with all your heart, cradle their body against yours and create an aggregate of biology, and then just suddenly…not. I can rehash this strange concept in my head and hate you completely and sincerely, sit shaking in my room with the curtains drawn and wonder blindly about the meaning of words; wonder if you ever meant it, if you meant it at the time, if you just lied to me and never meant it. I’ll make myself feverish with the thinking but know underneath it that no, you weren’t lying, you did mean it at the time and now you don’t. And that will be the saddest thing."

"I can do all that or I can just stop bullsh-tting myself. I know I can run the post-break up script as well as the next wounded girl, recite the lines with all the dedicated tunnel vision of heartbreak and make myself feel like the worst kind of person, but should I? I can do that or I can just stop; keep nourishing my pain or snap my vertebrae straight and leave you in the past where you fell. I can shed my delicate skin and grow armor, feel safe in my own arms and learn to forget without forgiving. I can blot out the heart-puncturing memories, turn the page or buy a new book because memories only mean something if you let them. I can keep searching for happiness on the outside, keep trying to squeeze a hacked puzzle piece into the negative space of my heart, or I can stop viewing myself as inherently incomplete and become my own reason to smile."


http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/what-i-can-do-when-we-break-up/

"I'm not trying to hurt you, I'm just... So tired of disappointing you. I'm so sorry.
How do you look at the girl you love and tell yourself it's time to walk away?"

So I watched the vow online a couple of days ago. And these few sentences just hit so much closer to home than it should have.

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Hello from San Diego!!! The drive here was like nearly 10hours cos we stopped at ihop to have pancakes for dinner. Drove like at least 2-3 hours on the left side. Took awhile to get used to it but it was quite cool. Like my first time driving for so long. Haha. We are gng to catch Bruno mars later!!! And gng to the beach now! La jolla!! Okay we are here :)

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Just give it to me quick
Are you coming home?
Don't dance around it

I need to hear this
I chose you long ago
Have you chosen me yet?

Now please don't take this wrong
You know I want you
But don't think I won't move on

'Cause I'm starting to wear thin, find it harder to forgive
Every time you let us slip down your list of priorities

I'm waiting for you to finally say you're here and here to stay
But darling, if you know that it's through
You can't keep doing what you do
If it's time to let go of

You once whispered words to me
Wondering if anybody loved each other like we do

Hello!

So I'm about slight less than a month away from my actual exams and I wish time can just standstill now so that I could study more and try not to freak out that much.

And! Tmr's free cone day! Quite cool that it's a worldwide thing. And it's gonna be my second one since I was in Cebu last year! And though I've school till 630, I hope it'd be worth it to skip a little. Since it's my last shift till jul and maybe my last fcd!

So anyway, fcd is such a reminder of my first one! And everything that happened. Can't believe it's been 2 years since everything and how much so much has changed since. But note so self about it, "because the first one who does, loses".

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hello,

so in the midst of prelims now and i really cant wait to end soon! 3 more days. though to be honest i havent really been studying all that much. at least not as much as i want to lah, maybe it's the whole oh its just prelims?

anyway, so i made a decision a few days ago. actually no okay its only been TWO pathetic days. but guess what, i'm like not used to it. but it's a feeling i need to get used to right, not talking as much, in fact, at all. dont even think - realizes in the first place. but yup, for the better cause right? but it's just funny how it came about? maybe its just the whole someone from your past and how it just connected. but okayyy. i shall just stop thinking about it so much, and come what may right?

shall go back and study for my LAST paper. hehe.

You have my attention
Like you’ve had all the while,
Since that first day when you made my heart smile,
With loving eyes and tired sighs that follow.
You have my attention

Hello it's been so long since I've typed here. Makes me wonder who still bothers to come here. Anyway so my first year of uni has officially come to an end.

Okay not really an end yet since there's still exams. I'm in the midst of prelims now. Which is rather insignificant since it's not considered but of cos it would provide a good gauge of where I'm currently at la.

So I found out today that I apparently do what I hate most-of people talking about stuff before a paper. Apparently I've got this tendency to chant last min stuff under my breath before I enter the exam hall to ppl around me. Haha. And I can't believe I just realised that only today after soooo many years of taking exams. But it's so.. Heartwarming in the sense cos winner said like she missed hearing me chant random stuff to her or like tell her last min facts before the paper. And I turned and asked Ruiling if I did that, and she was like ya, since year 1! And I went oh no I'm super irritating!! But then she was like no but at least you try to teach me before the paper. So yes.

And okay quite exciting that i got my confirmed timetable today so Berkeley here I come. I officially finish exams 19/5 and school term will be starting 23/5, so its gonna be damn rush, and Im not sure how Im gng to work things out. Can't believe I'm rly going for it. It was kinda an impulsive thing (like what's new). But I'm quite psyched about it yet I can't help but worry? About stuff here. But I guess this is when faith comes in. And I guess I'm just really trusting God this time once again.

Ah I cant believe it's march already and jan/feb just flew by. But 2011 has been quite alright so far I suppose. For starters, I'm officially 21 now. Which is kinda scary. Cos I still feel pretty much 18? Like when I look back, yes I've grown a lot like through the little experiences and everyday life. But fundamentally I don't feel like I've changed much la. If anything maybe a little more reserved in my little ways. Like I'm not as rah rah as last time. And surprise surprise not. I'm still quite hung up on the same thing again. Okay like i don't think it matters as much, like the feelings aren't the same anymore. But it doesn't take much to bring me back, to where I was sometimes. Like I still do stupid stuff, and then the next sec I would be like okay. Why am I doing this? But of cos that's not saying that there aren't other stuff right now that I feel for. Or maybe its jus the whole, I've no idea what I want that's making everything so frustrating in a way.

Alright it's actually damn late and I ought to try to sleep right now. So goodnight (:

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There is an ongoing b1 revamp and b2 link!

Check out http://www.rafflescity.com.sg/newdirections/ for more details on the raffles city new directions!

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Just had an awesome time with the group and I totally love the truffle fries and the nutella marshmallow milkshake! Here's a pic of happy me with the broucher!

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